Gah. Time for yet again another update. There's just been so much going on lately that I really haven't had the time (even though it is long overdue).

I pretty much found out who my true friends are *NOT* last week... I don't know what happened/what's been going on, but it seemed that things were going just fine and then literally overnight things drastically changed. Mollie suddenly gets this really nasty attitude toward me and she turns one of my friends against me and needless to say I'm completely and utterly lost. I haven't done a single thing wrong and yet there's all of this pointless hatred geared toward me. I was just really hurt more than anything because one night when I was getting ready for work, Mollie invited Holly (thus other mentioned "friend") and some other people over and although I was literally ten feet away, I could hear them saying bad things behind my back. Friends don't talk bad behind their friends' backs. I was just completely devastated once more because I thought that these people were my friends; I had known them for years and had learned to love and trust them for who they were. Alas, Mollie has failed me yet again and it pains me that Holly would intentionally hurt me. To be perfectly honest, I still have no idea what's going on. I can assume that everyone is acting weird just because I'm friends with Troy. (We started talking again about a week and a half ago and we still want to be apart of each others' lives, just not (obviously) in the same way as before.) I can understand if my friends may be a little disappointed in me, but all of this? This is just ridiculous. If this is going to give my mind peace and make me happy then I honestly don't see what the problem is.

Anyway, after overhearing my friends bad mouth me, I knew I had to get out of that situation. Things could have been more-so ignored if one of the people involved wasn't my roommate, and trust me, like I've mentioned briefly, this isn't the first time that Mollie's screwed me over. So, I had a long talk with my mom as well as my landlord and Thursday night I moved back in with my mom. I know some of you may be thinking that this move is a bit silly, but honestly, I don't need people like that in my life. I was tired of feeling unwelcome in my own home and like I had said, it wouldn't be so big of a deal if one of the people involved wasn't my roommate/supposed "best friend". Nonetheless, I had to do this and I couldn't be happier. I'm so relaxed, just so at peace to finally be in a comfortable and quiet environment and to just be in a place where I know I'll be loved. I mean, hell, even my own mother, who was one to never really be partial to Troy to begin with, is happy that he and I are friends. Honestly, there's nothing wrong with that. I know that the whole "exes being friends" thing hardly ever works out and it's great to see that he's actually putting an effort toward it to make it work.

So, that's basically what's been going on. It pretty much took me two days to get everything out of my apartment and into my mom's house. (Thank goodness I was off for that time being as well; I actually don't go back to work until tomorrow night.) I've just been trying to organize things the best that I can and just re-settle in. Otherwise, besides the organizing, I'm just trying to relax and enjoy myself and the time off from work that I have. Hopefully now that I'm in a stress-free and drama-free environment that I may start up with my artwork again since this is something that I've been neglecting for some time now.

Needless to say, I am not talking to Mollie or Holly anymore. I actually gave Mollie another chance after the crap she's continually pulled on me, but I suppose some people never change. Not to sound conceited, but I'm better than that; I'm more mature than that. I don't need to be a part of "gossip girl". We're not in grade school, in fact, we're almost twenty-one years old. It's time to focus on me for a change and figure out what I want and what makes me happy and if being friends with Troy makes me happy, then people will just have to learn to accept it and get over it, as shitty as that may sound. As mentioned before, if I'm happy, then that's all that should matter.