It's funny how as soon as life seems to be going grand that the tables start to turn and my whole world is flipped upside down once more... I don't think I have ever felt so used, hurt, confused, frustrated, and stressed in my entire life. I'll make a simple breakdown of certain things but as for going into detail, that's something I'm going to leave out for once. I just...don't feel like doing it. (If you guys certainly must know what's going on however, feel free to drop me a note and I'll be more than happy to reply. [Well, not really "happy" but you know what I mean.])

*I'm currently working eight days in a row at my job. Tonight will be night four, but even though I'm halfway through it, I already feel like I want to kill someone and I'm stuck doing all of these special orders which is doing nothing but making me even more pissed off. I'm trying to be positive about it and acknowledge that it is more hours, but I seriously was hoping for a day off sooner than this. >_<

*Things with Derek didn't work out. Again, I don't really want to elaborate unless you guys want to send me a note, but although I am doing better now, I was pretty devastated last week.

*After things fell through with Derek, my mind has been wandering back to Troy. I'm currently talking to him. A big part of me is screaming "WHAT IN THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING!?" but in all honesty, I really just don't give a fuck right now.

*I keep toying with the idea of leaving dA. Let's face it, I never draw anymore nor am I ever in the mood for it. I don't even check deviations from my watchers, comment, or anything. I just check to see if I have favorites and comments and that's it, which seems kind of selfish. (Anyway, don't count on me leaving as I highly doubt it's going to happen, but the thought has crossed my mind several times for some reason...)

*I guess the only really good thing that has happened so far was that I had a job interview yesterday about an application that I turned in about five months ago of all things. I think I did extremely well and we'll just have to see what happens.